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we'll go down in history, remember me for centuries
 | •BIOGRAPHY & CHILDHOOD•
What are three moments in your childhood life that you feel shaped you? 1. The outside world. My family has mostly been sheltered to the English countryside since I was young. We ended up moving towards London area when I was 7 or 8, but even then I never went outside much. I played with the people father brought over or occasionally looked out the windows. Mother always made it seem like it could be unsafe for me to go outside, but what did she know? I was actually home schooled until my letter came in the mail, and I had never ridden a broom because my parents always feared the worse. Life was really sheltered until I came to Hogwarts, it was like a saving grace. The first time I held a broom made me feel more alive than any knick knacks or secret books had in our town home. Fresh air became like a second friend as I yearned for nights outside near the lake. Most of the time, I choose not to go home because it means dealing with pureblood rituals and training to take over for my father. Too bad I don't want to take over, but I'm not going to tell him that. I'm destined for greater things. 2. Puberty. It was awful. I'm really not sure what to say past that... I try to forget the years before now a lot. Mother mentioned when I was young to enjoy my times because things would change so quickly and I suppose it did. My hair, my eyes, something became so different and people suddenly wanted to talk to me no matter where I was. A girl hung off the roof once trying to reach into my astronomy room. I ended up taking comfort in flying and hiding away in secret places until the changes stopped. They still happen, but I guess you could say I learned to control them....well only after Father finally told me what was going on. I don't like talking about it though and really, I don't even believe in it. At least my voice is deeper now, right? I'm secretly afraid of myself though, I'm a monster. 3. Disappearance. This is common in my world, more often than I like. I don't really get why though. I lost a friend before I started school, a cousin here or there. They'd just up and vanish. Sometimes Father would claim it was because they weren't 'pure' enough or loyal enough, but I guess I never really understood what it meant until recently. There's a lot going on in the world that people never consider, how vast it is. It formed me a lot as a person while I was little because I never knew who to trust or where to go for a friend. I still don't sometimes, but being in Slytherin helps a lot. I just wish I could understand people a bit better, but that's my own fault. I only have two years left and the most I do is my prefect walks at night, go on a couple dates, drink in the common room. Perhaps I should try living, but I think I'm still too afraid. |  |
| •PERSONALITY & APPEARANCE•
What are three personality traits that help to define you and why? 1. Different. I'm just...different, but not in a good or a bad or even a noticeable way. Like I said, I feel like a monster sometimes. There's always a good side to a bad side, but I think my bad outweighs my good. I only know a couple people who accept me as I am, but I think most of them just humor me. I'm not even sure how to describe this trait other than someone who just doesn't completely always fit in. Slytherin is the closest I've ever come to feeling like I am at home. Quidditch too. I wonder a lot if its bad to wish to be so normal...Sadly, they don't make charms for that like the ones my mother has been having me use since puberty. Maybe I can make one someday. 2. Freedom. I never felt free until I got to Hogwarts and I think this shows a lot. Whenever I can, I run for the lake or the forest edges, taking my broom to enjoy the cool air against my skin. Freedom wasn't found often as a child and now that I have it, I don't think I can ever give it up. It's made me stronger as a person, even if I'm still a bit weary of people, and made me able to fight on my own. Before I came to Hogwarts I was weak, but now I feel stronger than ever in terms of my physical abilities. I wish my feeling of freedom would translate to what's inside my mind, maybe one day. For now I prefer riding around and watching the people below me, diving to stop goals, and wandering the halls alone at night. 3. Cunning. This is a typical Slytherin word isn't it? But I don't think I would have survived without it. Being born and raised in a primarily pureblood family with a long line of Slytherin men, I guess this one was coming to me. I learned at an early age how to sneak food from the kitchens, how to train the house elves, and even how to charm people along the streets. My Mother says the last on isn't really cunning, but I'd like to believe it is. I'm proud of my Slytherin heritage and proud of where my family came from even if I don't like living in our town home in London. The fact that it made me cunning and sly is just a bonus, one that helped me to witness the outside world. I still remember the first time I met a muggle and got a quid off of him, it was great. Or the time I managed to try a toy broom because the kid next door was easy to distract. A lot of people say to be cunning is bad, but I would disagree completely. It's a way of life. | |
| •Plotting•
Plotting for all. We are looking for most anything at this point! Slytherin (pureblood) friends are a must, but there is always a place for outside houses. Xander is sometimes quiet because he prefers to observe, but he enjoys having people around him, especially if they bring him food and gifts. Those who enjoy adventure and flying are a very must. Due to Xander being a part veela, there will be quite a few spots open for people who want to play that line. Xander does not acknowledge that part and uses many charms to hide it so no one but his closest comrades would actually know. Relationship Post here. | |
| •STATISTICS•
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